To the Moon and Back

At 5:51 pm, I received a call from one of my best friends, Kate... A call I never expected... A call that no one would ever dare to answer... A call that will suddenly shatter your world and disturb your almost perfect day. Her voice was shaking, and I know that she had been crying and she was sniffing.

I wonder... I wonder why she was crying. I wonder if she had broken up with her boyfriend, but she had dropped the most explosive bomb ever made into this world... "She's gone." Those were her words. I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do, and most of all I don't know how will I react, although I felt a pain in my chest, a heavy feeling in my heart.

It echoed in my ears that our friend is gone. Our best friend is gone, and I don't know whether I had the right to call her, "best friend". Yet she's the person who showed me more of the K - Pop and the anime world. She's one of those people who made an impact in my life, and she's the person I envy, because she's better than me in the things that I want to excel in. I also look up to her, because she had something that I want to have, and she's also one of those people that I like to be friends with again in our next life, that's why I was surprised.

I didn't want to believe it, because she's young, strong and a cheerful person. I really didn't want to believe it... I asked Kate how did she died... I kept asking if it's a joke or not, but she told me to check our friends Facebook, because her cousin had posted something there, and I did, but still I didn't want to believe it. Besides CNBlue has a new album that I know she won't miss to have, so why now? Why all of a sudden?

Just a week ago, my niece and I were talking about CNBlue and she came into the conversation, because I know how much she loved Yonghwa, that she even claimed him as her husband. I could still picture her with her big quirky smile whenever she claimed it and the way she flipped her hair, and now she's gone. GONE! I wanted to believe that this was all just a prank that she had, and by tomorrow she'll laughed at us, telling us that we are gullible.

I will surely miss her, because for the past 4 years, she had been a classmate, an acquaintance and in the last days of our college years, she became my best friend. Even though in a short period of time, she had made an impact in my life and she had become important to me. She's a person I won't forget because of her jolliness and her craziness.

Have a nice flight Macoy! Let's just say that you'll be having a trip to South Korea to meet your biases, and that you'll be there forever.

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