My Horrible Senses

God has given us our senses, even the common sense, and scientist define this senses. We have our eyes that let us see the beauty of the world, our ears to hear pleasant words, our nose to appreciate the fragrance of the flowers and other stuff, our tongue to taste all those delicacies and to speak of good things and lastly our skin to feel, but there are times that we don't use it very well.While some of us are lacking it and they are wishing to have complete senses. So how do you use your sense?

I used mine differently and in a wrong way, that's why I pretend, while other people are wishing to have what I have. For me, they are lucky because they are not able to see or to hear or to feel the ugliness and the meanness of this world, that's why most of the time I wish I am, them, but of course I am still thankful for being complete.

There are times in my life, well most of the time to be honest, when I pretend to be deaf, so as not to hear all those stupid things other people say, or my classmates who are so loud and know - it - all. Sometimes, too I pretend to be blind to ignore people and not to see all those things that may hurt me or may change my life and sometimes I pretend to be mute to keep myself from saying the damn truth  that no one will listen to or just to hold myself from exploding, and most of all I pretend to be numb, so as not feel anything. I am not a disabled person, but I pretend to be, simply because this world where I am living seems to be unprepared by my coming.

I am not the only person who pretends to be like that, there are a lot of people who did that, but the way they use it, is way wrong than mine. These people, they are those people who only listen and believe in themselves that they are way better than other people. I know  that there is someone better than me. Someone who knows things I don't and someone who understand things I don't understand, and these people are those who don't have it all.